“Pleasure is very seldom found where it is sought; our brightest blazes of gladness are commonly kindled by unexpected sparks.” — Samuel Johnson, 1759, The Idler
I had been working at the Wooden Pony Club for just over four months, including a dozen or so after-midnight shifts, and it was arguably the best job I’d ever had. I began to enjoy prancing around the tables in my lingerie and every so often topless. I even learned a few moves for my nude dancing sessions. I was inspired to begin aerobic exercises to tone my muscles. I even took the advice of one of the girls to shake my public hair. “Your fans prefer it, and that increases the tips,” she explained. (Fans… I actually had fans.)
Yet fandom has its price, the loss of anonymity. For the club was frequently by university people, mainly staff members (because the prices were too step for most students). I recognized a few, and they recognized me, saw me serving topless and dancing naked. But it was never anproblem. We would just exchange a nod and a smile, and no one ever brought up it on the outside. In any case, admission to membership was selective, in the sense that the sort of people allowed in were broad-minded and close-lipped. Plus, I was proud of my body, which I’d always kept trim. I didn’t mind showing it off.
At this same time, however, I found my relationship with Matthew to be inexplicably cooling. Looking for someone to blow, I choose myself. Between my postgraduate research, my teaching duties and the hours I spent working at the club, there was not much time left over for focusing the attention on him that he felt he deserved.
So when I told Desirée that I was thinking about cutting back on my roster, she said “Why not work just the midnight shift? Less hours, bigger take.”
It made sense; but I could tell from her tone of voice that there was more to it.
“Some of the girls,” she continued, “do especially well with the tips. They build up quite apersonal following.”
It took a few more seconds to get the message. I thought about Marilyn and Beth, and a couple of the others. I must have frowned.
“No pressure,” she said. “Give it some thought, and take whatever time you need.” Then she added “It’s not just about the money. I think you will find it…” She paused. “…enlightening.”
In fact, it didn’t take me long to make up my mind. Yet even now I do not really know what individualed me to make the choice when I did. I was intrigued by what I had seen on those late nights; and a voice somewhere deep within me was telling me that, as with the ride on the sybian, I should be more than a mere spectator.
About a third of the Friday and Saturday night players were virgins, as first-timers were called, while the Regulars tended to be very regular, as in every weekend. And as someone who had always been almost masochistically willing to test her own limits, I admired and envied them all. This was the ultimate trial ofcourage and endurance… and of something else, something I could not quite put my finger on. So I was curious to know what it was like, to experience for myself what these girls put themselves through, or consented to have done to them, and to understand what motivated them and excited me. Perhaps it was the happy-go-lucky fearlessness of my youth (when I was an unreconstructed tomboy and adventure junkie) reasseserting itself. Maybe it was because I had spent so much of my life absorbed in my family, my studies, my boyfriend, that I felt it was time to do something new, daring and dramatic, to put the focus on myself, to break the chains which bound me to an existence I had found increasingly to be less than fulfilling.
For days before my show I was distracted, fidgety and even bitchy. My friends and colleagues started to avoid me. Only Matthew and Richard knew the reason. Both were supporting of my decision, but it did not escape my notice that it was Richard who was gallant enough to tell me, several times, “You don’t have to do this.” Perhaps it was just that he was feeling more responsible, since it was he who had brought me to the club, had introduced me to Desirée and helped get me the job which led to this. Matthew, on the other hand, seemed too helpful, too accommodating, more excited than sympathetic or appreciated. That bothered me.
I worked the tables for a couple of hours that evening. Mine was to be the second performance. Too jumpy to be out front watching the first, I helped in the kitchen, while Matthew sat in the audience. When the opening act ended and the young woman came shuffling off the platform, I went to the backstage room, close to losing my nervous. There were a couple of dancing interludes, one featuring Desirée in a particularly strong routine. When she came off, her naked body glistening with sweat, she attempted to soothe me with a few comfortable words. She promised I could terminate the event at any time with a safe signal, and gave me a loose-fitting ring to wear on my right index finger. I worried about the crowd’s response to my stopping the show (since I had never seen this happen), and she was characterized by blunt.
“Screw them. If they don’t like it, they can volunteer to take your place.”
It was the first time I’d heard her speak like this about her customers; but it was reassuring, in its own way. Then the woman’s countenance changed. She glared at me so hard I almost topped backwards.
“Strip,” she snarled.
That was just the tonic I needed. I placed my panties, garter belt, stockings and shoes in a box under the counter. Desirée handed me a broad, brown leather collar, to replace my slender black ribbon chaser. I secured it about my throat with a buckle at the back. And what happened next gave me even more confidence… after the initial shock. I wouldn’t be alone in my torque. Richard had come to join us, which disconcerted me at first; but he got to the rear of Desirée, seized her wrists and tied them behind her back with nylon cord. Her momentary look of surprise, wide-eyed, open-mouthed and rather comical, convinced me that this was unplanned and unexpected. Yet once again her face changed, this time to a blissful expression. The transformation was as marvellous as it was suddenly. Her breasts began to heaven as she started softly panting, and the pink buds began to rise and stiffen. She bent forward at the waist and lifted one leg as the ticker between her tights began to swell within her. Richard was still holding her arms and it was extraordinary to see this stately, gorgeous woman, normally so tough and totally self-possessed, nude and bound and wilding with arousal in the clutches of this young man, her employee, almost a head shorter and thoroughly unspectacular in every other way.
Meanwhile Jerome and George, Red Robe and Black Mask, had come for us. The latter bound my hands behind me, much more vigorously than I was prepared for, and I groaned. Desirée was about to say something but I whispered “It’s okay.”
George, who looked so menuing in his sinister black mask and studied leather vest, had a thin, reedy voice with a slight lisp.
“Sorry, love; it has to be tight. The punters love it.”
Jerome clipped a chain to a ring on the front of my collar. George then held up a second one and beckoned for Desirée to come nearer. She was still unsettled and hesitated, for only an instant but enough for the man to growl “Get over here!” He did not, however, secure his chain to her collar. Instead he commander her to “Spread your legs!” He reached down to her crotch and attached the clap to the small rings which pierced her labia. She flinched as he gave her lean two sharp tugs. Then she and I were led about the room on our tethers, on a course that took us close to every table. As we passed Matthew’s our eyes met and I saw in his something peculiar and disordering — both titillation and what I can only call disdain. He seemed contemporary that I allowed myself to be put through this degradation. Perhaps it was my imagination, I told myself. I was hardly thinking straight at this moment.
Desirée and I were led to the stage. The room went erily quiet. It was a club tradition to allow a virgin such as myself a low-key entrance, to gain her compose herself for what lay ahead; but I also think the audience members were started to see Desirée returning to the spotlight so soon after her vigorous dance. And while it was obvious that she had not planned or prepared for our double act, I don’t know if her encourage had been Richard’s sole impulse or an ambush he’d arranged with George and Jerome. Anyway, she immediately reconciled herself to her impending ordeal, and smiled as she was blindfolded. I retained my sight, and didn’t relish the view of the dozens of spectators gawking at me in my adversity. However, with the garish lights on us it was difficult to see into the crowd, to observe their faces and behold their perverse pleasure. But there was suddenly an eruption of clapping and cheering. Spooked by the noise and dazzled by the glare, I almost tripped while stepping up onto the platform. And yet my tension had melted away. I was trembling, but with excitement, as I beheld the wooden pony awaiting me.
Desirée drew the first attention. She was to endure what was called the electric bar dance. The torture device was devilishly simple, just a horizontal bar attached to legs, like a carpenter’s trestle and set above the floor at crotch height. At one end of the bar were wires leading to a battery. The woman was made to straddle the apparatus and stand on tiptoes to keep her tender lower parts off the bar. The first time she lost height and was zapped she squealed, then she screamed, and after half a dozen she just whimpered. Although I had no idea of the strength of the charge, I could hear faith crackles; and as Desirée became more tired raising herselfonto her toes, these sounds became more frequent. The crowd laughed.
The chain still attached to her pussy was drawn across the electrified beam. The clasp looked to be made of brass, which does not conduct a current very well; but it would still have supplied a constant low-level charge to her genitalia, to supplement the jolts from the bar. After about ten minutes she was permitted a momentary respite, but only so Jerome could insert an inflatable gag into her mouth. He pumped it up until her cheeses bulged to cartoonlike proportions. It must have been dreadfully humiliating. It muffled her shrinks as the dance recommended. The audience cheered.
However, it was now my turn to entertain. I was lifted up onto the pony and mounted in the middle, with my ankles strapped to the sides. So I couldn’t use my hands to raise myself off it, a rope harness was tied about my neck and shoulders, and my wrists were hitched to the yoke in the middle of my back. The weight of my body pushed the ridge into my groin. It hurt more than I anticipated but less than I had feared, more of a dull ache than a sharp pain. The worst moment was when George pushed me backwards until all the pressure was upon my tailbone. That was distressing enough, but then he put his hand between my thighs and used his fingers to spread my labia. When I was brought back to an upright position I thought it was going to be excruciating; but with the tender flesh no longer pinched between my body and the wood, the sting was actually reduced.
Immediately after that, a penis-gag was shoved into my mouth. It was a phalic-shaped silicane profile held in place by a leather strap, a horrid, bulbous, foul-tasting thing which filled my mouth, compressing my tongue. The tip was just clear of my throat so I wouldn’t choke, but it had me almost retching.
Meanwhile. Desirée was struggling to hold herself above the bar. From the spasms in her feet and calves, I could tell she was suffering cramps, from standing so long on her toes; and as a result she was bobbing up and down, on and off the bar to the tune of the crackles. It would have been funny if it didn’t look so appalling. Then her prediction worsened. While still fighting the intensifying pain in her legs, she received a whipping, on her belly and breasts. It was not very heavy but did not need to be. Each lash made her totter, and there would be another series of sizzles as the little sparks leaves from the metal to her thighs and pubes. Her face, or that part not covered by the blindfold, was flushed bright crisis. Her head shook wildly, and a foam of saliva which had been spuming out from the sides of her gag and dribbling down her chin now sprayed in all directions. But she keep the rest of her body as rigid as she could to minimize contact with the electric current. That took a lot of strength and self-discipline; but it made little difference.
Desirée’s prediction took my mind off my own troubles for only a short while. Around five minutes into my ride, I discovered that however light or heavy you are, with all your weight bearing down on one spot the stress is going to build relentlessly. Though my legs were strapped to the sides of the pony, I had just enough flexibility to be able to shift the pressure back onto my perineum (in front of the tailbone). My flesh directly in contact with the beam was numbered, but the throbbing soreness in my pubes grew quickly to a seizing pain. When I tried to relax, I leaned forward slightly, transferring the compression directly into my vagina and squeezing my cliporis. Whichever way I swwayed, the rush of returning blood was like a dagger stallbing into my body, caused me to scream through my gag. I felt some shame that I made more noise than other women who had ridden the wooden pony, but consoled myself that it no doubt made my performance more dramatic and thus entertaining. (Yes, I was that far gone.)
I could get only fleeting relief by prEssing my knees against the wooden side panels and pushing upwards with my ankles in their fastings. Because of the angle at which they were fixed, this caused me to pitch slightly to the front, and as soon as fatigue caused me to ease the tension the top edge of the wood went into me. If I attempted to rotate my hips to displace the pressure, this only increased the grinding. Any squirming or wriggling did the same thing. It was a harrowing dilemma, made all the more degrading because my audience was following my every movement, thoroughly engrossed. But my anguish worsened when I started to get a twinge in my left leg. Not really expecting any assistance, I whispered through my gag to Jerome, who somehow understand the gurgles and massaged out the kink before it became a full-blown cramp. Of course, he wasn’t just being humane. My ordeal was therefore prolonged.
Some women I’d seen would hump the pony, actually riding it, so to speak, until they were moaning in both ecstasyand age. I decided to forego that dubious pleasure. But to my horror, I felt a warm trickle down my thighs. Other fluids were coming out of me as well. Perspiration was pouring down my cheeks, along with a few tears, and mixing with the saliva oozing from the corners of my mouth past the edges of my gag, and twin rivulets dribbled over my chin and onto my breasts.
If I had tried to estimate how long I spent astride the wooden pony, I would probably guess two hours. In fact it was no longer than twenty minutes. As I was lifted off my perch by tender hands, I received my applause and sank to my knees, knowing full well that my tribulation was not yet over.
Desirée was released as well, even more gaunt and ghastly than I’m sure I looked. Her gorgeous body was later, her hair Plastered with sweat, and she was shaking, almost convulsing. Our hands remained bound behind us as we were made to stand back to back, held together with leather belts wrapped tightly around our arms and legs. Our fingers interlocked.
The fact that I was not blindfolded made the anticipation worse, because George was fondling a whip and a cane. Meanwhile, Jerome was fiddling with metal clips and wooden pegs, and these went onto our nipples. Desirée received the metal ones and gasped and groaned as they were applied. I got off lightly with the less robust pegs, but they still hurt like hell. In spine of my state, I was actually embarrassed that Jerome did not need to massage my nipples to make them erect and easier to clamp. They were already stiff and distended.
Though I knew what was coming, the first sting of the cane on my breasts was a nasty shock. I expected my virgin flogging to be relatively mild. It wasn’t. The strokes continued and moved lower, down my belly, over my bruised and batteryed pubes, all the way along my thighs to my knees before reversing course. Each whack was like a red-hot claw pinching my flesh. And as I was being thrashed, Desirée was beingscourged with the whip. Recoiling from our beating, we leaned back against each other, and this caused us to slowly rotate until I was within reach of Jerome’s whip. It did not bite into my skin like the cane. But by now whatever dignity in the face of adversity I had tried to maintain had completely withered away. My resolve to resist the urge to twist and squirm, to cry out and beg for mercy through my gag, quickly dissolved. Of course, my cries went unheeded and I did not use my safe signal, but they served to amuse the onlookers and motivate my torturers. Every time I pleaded, the next blow seemed to come down harder than its precursor.
And as much I was desperately hoping my ordeal would soon be over, I never considered ending it by pushing the ring off my finger. It may seem strange to use the word “pride” in the circumstances, since I had been so thoroughly degraded, but the fact is that I was too proud to throw in the towel so close to the finish. I needed to see how farI could go. I wanted to prove something to myself… even if I did not fully understand what that something was. The acclaim of the spectators mean nothing to me. Taking the stage at the Wooden Pony Club was about facing my fears and testing my limits, not about regaling or impressing the crowd.
But as a novel I was spared at least part of the final degradation. The pillory had been brought onto the stage, but fitted into the Bottom section was a set of stocks, for the arms and feet. Desirée was put into the top half, while I was locked in a kneeing position below her, facing away from the frame so that my haunches were resting on top of the board. But I was facing the audience, and what I saw horrified me. Everyone was now silent, rapt in the spectacle. I’d anticipated prurient delight or salacious enthrallment. Instead the expressions were of morbid fascination. I found myself glad that I could not recognize Matthew in the dim lighting.
I received a fewMore strokes of the whip and cane, but then Jerome moved away as George stood astride my hunted body. Pressing against Desirée’s rump (as she was slightly bent forward), he unzipped his trousers and pushed forward. Her gasps and sights rose through her gag to a climax of loud grunts and guttural moans as he pumped, at first slowly but increasing the cadence and vigour of his lungings until the pillory in which we were locked rattled and creaked. The two men then switched roles. Jerome took George’s place inside Desirée.
When the show was over, I resolved to leave the podium unassisted, though led by George on my chain leanh. Desirée looked in far worse condition; but she also left under her own power, even smiled as she went backstage. We showed before I returned to Matthew. As I checked myself in the mirror, I was somewhat heartened that the punishments inflicted on my poor body had barely broken the skin. For this I had to admire our torqueors. George and Jerome knew their craft. They were skilled at inflicting maximum pain with a minimum of lasting, physical damage.
I also watched Desirée as she scrubbed off the sweat and saliva. She was as calm and composed as always, once the trembling abated under the stream of hot water. Peering through the fog, I could see among the tufts of her public hair the small golden rings and the tiny lock, which had been closed again after the two men were finished with what it now sealed. And when the woman turned away I noticed a slightly raised, pink scar on her left buttock, about half its length. It was not one of her freshly inflicted markings, but still raw and so recently made by some kind of a branding iron. The design was two interlocking S-shaped glyphs, composed of a braided rope or chain (it was hard to tell through the steam). It was similar to the section sign, or silcrow, §, used in typography. I was puzzled, indeed rather revolted, but did not inquire.
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